I'm so fucking frustrated!!!

Alright, I'm gonna be venting here, so beware.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!! Like seriously what the hell.
I did perfect today, and i mean perfect. I went out, got a non-fat yogurt, had a black cofee and that was it . I was so happy all day. I even bought myself a new bikini to motivate me. I come home and what.... i binge!!!!
The stupid thing is my mind is screaming at me "Stop, stop!!!!" And i'm trying to, but i just can't. Fucking hell, i don't know what to do with myself.
I'm totally fasting tomorrow, I feel like that's the only way i can regain control. And from Monday on I'm putting myself on such a strict schedule i won't have time to binge.
I feel like crying, screaming, ripping out all my hair.
I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm so frustrated and disapointed. I need to find some way to punish myself, i really do.

I don't feel like talking anymore, i just want to fall asleep and never wake up!