Crying because i can't stop.

I'm out of control.
Haven't counted calories in the last week,and even though i hit 91 lbs yesterday i binged and gained 2 lbs. Fuck, can't i do anything right.
Where's my control when i need it! I can be a failure at everything else in life, but at least let me starve properly.

There's blood dripping down my leg and a dull pain, i don't give a fuck. Right now I don't give a fuck about anything. I just need to get through this day with a plastered smile on my face and convince myself that everything is going to be ok, even though deep inside i know it will never be.

I need some god damned alcohol, anything that will dull this pain that is making it hard to breath, hard to live, hard to do anything productive with my life.

Yup, I'm a pity case, so I'm gonna stop bitching right now and get on with my miserable little life.